Five years, almost to the date, after we were married we were blessed with Sarah. We both knew from the very start that children were important to the both of us. We thought for sure we would have a houseful. Starting a family seemed like it would return us to normalcy after Chris' accident and recovery and my year plus struggle with PTSD and depression.
Our first pregnancy was easy to acheive. Unfortunately it ended in miscarriage. We were devasted. I thought that after the trial of Chris' accident, we were in for some good times ahead. Well that fairy tale world doesn't exist. A long year later I was pregnant again and again lost in miscarriage.
It seemed almost everyone I knew was busy trying or having their second baby. Every day and night I would pray that if we could only have one, we would be forever grateful. Finally after encouragement from friends, I changed doctors and found one interested in helping us. A lot of testing and a few months later, my suspisions were confirmed that I had a low progesterone level. Praise God the fix was easy and we conceived within the next two months.
Sarah was born on May 4, 2007 a happy, healthy baby girl. Another day that forever changed me. Today my heart longs to hold another baby in my body and arms. We've lost two pregnancies since which confirms that levels are low once again. I remember asking God for just one baby to tuck into bed at night and I got just what I asked. I am amazingly content if she is our only angel on this side of heaven for I know we have five more (I had a twin pregnancy) waiting when we get home!
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